Saying good-bye is hard to do

Wow, I completely lost track of how long it has been since I posted here!! Things have been absolutely CRAZY the last few months. Hubby dear got moved from brigade up to Division back in July, which moved his deployment up from a tentative December time frame to October!! Yea, my six months of preparation time got cut down to three. That meant that I didn't have money saved to resole his boots, get him some extra non-standard issue equipment from clothing and sales, etc. It also meant we didn't get to follow through on our plans for Thanksgiving... saving up money and asking for his daughter for the holiday and spending it with his family in Indiana. Instead, his mom had him come up for a weekend, he got to see his daughter for less than 48 hours and tell her during that trip that he was leaving for a year.

So this morning we had the fun of getting up at 0300 so we could relax for a while and get a good breakfast before driving out to the 0500 report. I did pretty good, just a few sniffles most of the time. It was at the final formation that I started to lose it, when I realized that I was not going to see my husband again after I gave him that last hug. They had one last cluster formation to do a head count and then they loaded up the buses. I had no clue what bus he was on. After they had been on the buses and they were finishing up their final checks before driving off, he popped his window down and called me and waved. I stayed until the buses had driven off and turned the corner before I finally went to the truck, but it was a few minutes before I was able to drive home. Luckily, my ex had agreed to keep the kids late for me today so I didn't have to worry about hurrying home to get them from him.

Now I am just exhausted. I need to put away laundry that we finished yesterday so he could get the last of the clothes he needed packed (PT socks, green socks, etc), I need a bath I think, and right now the kids and I are watching a movie (well, I am multitasking!!) and I am hoping they fall asleep since they were a bit cranky this afternoon, and I may take a nap myself... minimum, we are going to bed early!!