A weekend of emotions

They are finally here! After nine weeks and a five hour drive and a seven hour wait (nice job on the road mapping George :P) I finally got my kids back. The first half of the weekend has already turned out to be an emotional one. Typical, he was late, just our luck, he got caught by slow drivers and accidents most of the route, so I got up four hours earlier than planned to be there at noon, and he didn't get there til after six. He also didn't tell me his best friend was coming with him. And his best friend happens to be someone that I like a lot, always have enjoyed his company, and when me and my ex split, those feelings developed a little bit into a different kind of affection. So seeing him out of the blue after so long, and with the physical changes he has made, was quite a shock. Then the emotions that come along with divorce and remarraige and family and stuff. It was a little more emotional than I had prepared for. And to top it off, I spent the first half of the weekend talking to my ex-husband's new wife, the woman who should be my arch-enemy. I was actually able to calmly tell her how I felt about her over the last year and a half and how I felt about some stuff that has happened, and that I am finding that I can finally forgive her. And she was actually able to tell me that she understood all my feelings towards her and that she didn't blame me or begrudge me for it. She calmly accepted her role and the consequences of her actions on me and my family. She didn't make any real effort to make excuses for her actions, or for my ex-husband's. Simple adult responsabilitly for a very immature, childish, and self-centered course of action. Unfortunately, none of us can go back and undo the damage that has been done, or the damage that I believe is going to come. But I don't think I need to fear her ever wanting to take my children away from me. Two months of "playing" mom to them has made her tell her new husband that as much as she doesn't mind joint custody or having them during the summer when I have full custody, the kids belong with me full time. She can't handle being a full time mom to them. Especially when they are not her children. Life just keeps throwing me the curve balls. Now I just gotta wait for a man to be curve balled at me.